My Immortal

I am about to put the lyrics of a song that i can't listen to. i just downloaded this song from I-tunes, and i guess its the icing on the cake because i cant control my emotions anymore. if you know me well, i dont want to worry you by putting these lyrics up...but im in a shitty place. And the sad thing is...i don't know who im crying most for....because Tom died and this is the song they played at his funeral, wich was nearly a year ago. Because I miss Jon, or because i hurt the one person in the world who never deserves to be hurt. The wierd thing is that this song, that ive hid from for nearly a year, relates so much to me right now. every line fits one part of me, or one person whos left, or who ive left, or who ive hurt.

My Immortal
-Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here.
Suppressed by all my childhood fears.
And if you have to leave,
I wish that you would just leave.
Cause your presence still lingers here,
and it won't leave me alone.

These wounds won't seem to heal,
this pain is just too real,
there's just too much that time cannot erase.

When you cried
I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream
I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.

You used to captivate me by your resonating light,
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice has chased away all the sanity in me.

These wounds won't seem to heal,
This pain is just too real,
There's just too much that time cannot erase.

When you cried
I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream
I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.

I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone.
But though you're still with me,
I've been alone all along.

When you cried
I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream
I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.