Have heart my dear, we're bound to be afraid

Ballet class begins in 45 minutes. I havn't been to one in 5 years (excluding the 2 classes i was dragged to at the westside academy) and I'm really nervous! I'm in the adult intermediate class...i feel like i should be in beginners, just to start off with! i hate ballet classes, lov ballet, but hate the classes. all the girls (take the westside academy) are so judgemental and cold, its really hard to make friends. i went to one school in england for 6 years and at the end of it only had 3 friends. It's so uneccesarily intimidating and scary, especially when you're about 10 dress sizes up from the rest of the class....